Life is like a plate of Chinese food, sweet and sour. Today Roger and his siblings and mother had to make the difficult decision to put his Dad in a nursing facility. Grandpa is still pretty sharp and has a decent memory and grasp of the day to day but he just is unable to be as mobile as everyone would like. I know how difficult this decision is for everyone concerned. All I can do is try to help Roger see the positive side of it. His dad is now literally minutes away from us and we can drop in on him several times a day. This also brings him closer to many of his granchildren and they also can run in and out and check on him. Once the facility realizes that he has many people who care and are prone to pop in and out, the quality of his care will be much better.
However, nursing homes are such depressing places that you hate to see someone you love have to endure them. To make matters worse, he knows where he is and he knows he is alone there. He cannot have overnight company which means Grandma can't stay with him.
We can only hope that he is able to get some strength and confidence built up in his own abilities where he and Tura can once again live together in their home. Must run for now, it is my night to babysit the Edwards Littles. More to come................
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Put a Cherry On It!
Yesterday was such a great day. Roger and I both spent the day doing pretty much what we wanted to. I made a big angel food cake which we both really enjoyed and later we took a large slice to Grandpa in the hospital. That little man sure never turns down a sweet treat. After a nice visit we went to Christ The King's Pasta and Paintings supper where we enjoyed a nice spaghetti dinner, good fellowship with family and then we returned home for cake and coffee. Angie, Patrick and Abby came by after the supper to watch a little football, drink coffee and have cake. We also got to see Genevieve, Audrey, Kaylee and Matt yesterday on kind of an in and out basis.
Genevieve and Audrey had both created works of art for the art sale and of course, I purchased both. Abby was absent on that day so she didn't have a picture :( What was really neat about the art is Genevieve's carried a predominately purple theme which will look lovely in my office. And Audrey painted a masterpiece evocative of the green grass all around so it will hang in the hall bathroom. I love them both and can't wait to have them framed.
Then to put a cherry on top of my sundae, I found out from Kim Singer that we have been awarded the contract for Greenwood Public Schools. Wow! Out of the frying pan and into the fire! I also had occasion to speak with Mr. Hattabaugh, the superintendent of schools at Mansfield last night and let him know that he will be receiving our proposal next week.
I have a wicked busy week coming up. I am helping Terry shoot Northside (my least favorite place to be) and so I will be whipped by weekend but maybe a little financially better off. Gotta run, this is my only day to clean my house before the craziness begins.
Peace and love! :)
Genevieve and Audrey had both created works of art for the art sale and of course, I purchased both. Abby was absent on that day so she didn't have a picture :( What was really neat about the art is Genevieve's carried a predominately purple theme which will look lovely in my office. And Audrey painted a masterpiece evocative of the green grass all around so it will hang in the hall bathroom. I love them both and can't wait to have them framed.
Then to put a cherry on top of my sundae, I found out from Kim Singer that we have been awarded the contract for Greenwood Public Schools. Wow! Out of the frying pan and into the fire! I also had occasion to speak with Mr. Hattabaugh, the superintendent of schools at Mansfield last night and let him know that he will be receiving our proposal next week.
I have a wicked busy week coming up. I am helping Terry shoot Northside (my least favorite place to be) and so I will be whipped by weekend but maybe a little financially better off. Gotta run, this is my only day to clean my house before the craziness begins.
Peace and love! :)
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Dancing Cherries
I want to take ballroom dancing lessons. At my age and weight, I figure I could be just as funny as Leachmann
I'm living in a fish bowl!
I'm having one of those swimming round and round and getting nowhere weeks. My little fins are getting a wee bit frazzled. I've also experience not just a little bit of frustration in my ability to completely make bad situations worse. I'll swear I can do more harm with good intentions than most people who deliberately set out to destroy.
Personally, I am scared to death on more streets than I can name. I worry about how the current economic situation is going to affect my husband's brand new business. I worry about the fact that I don't have a job (my own fault, I realize) but none the less.....I worry about both Roger's and my health and the lack of health insurance. I went to Wal-Greens today to refill my thyroid medication and it cost $44.00 and the young man said "Just so you know, this isn't covered by your insurance." Well that ticked me off so I replied, "Just so you know, I don't have any insurance." Then when I went to pick it up, the girl ringing me out said, "Don't you have insurance?" Okay, that particular scab needs to be left alone for awhile. It is really starting to hurt when you pick at it.
I worry about my mom who just had a birthday, lives in Texas long and far away and got a birthday card from my ex-sister-in-law who included a picture of my mom's "boyfriend" with some other woman that had been published in the paper. Now, maybe it's just me, but I thought that was a little mean spirited. Considering the fact the picture was 4 or 5 months old and she had just seen this "family" member about 2 weeks ago and she never mentioned it. I think to send something like that in someone's birthday card was nothing short of evil. My mom has always loved this girl and treated her like her own daughter, no, cancel that....better than her own daughter. It really hurt my mom and then she found out that the woman lives about a mile from her, so obviously "boyfriend" has been making his trips to town really count! Consider that we are talking about people in their late 80s and this is sortof funny but it hurt my mom to think that he wouldn't tell her about something like that and that her friend would do something so thoughtless as to send it in her card without even saying anything about it. SCREAM!!!!!!
I worry about my children, my grandchildren, my friends and heck sometimes even people I hardly know.
I found out today that the father of a girl I had as a boy's club cheerleader many years ago, died suddenly last week from a bleeding stroke. He was still a young man and had a child still in high school. I just think that is tragic. And it makes me realize that you can never assume that you always have tomorrow or next week or next year to make things right with people, tell them you love them and try to make sure that you have no reason for regrets.
I'm really tired today, physically, mentally and emotionally. Roger is spending the night at the hospital again tonight which he really doesn't need to do since he just returned from a very tiring trip so I guess I'll put it to bed early, take my Advil PM and shut out the problems for just a little while. I have a booger of a week next week so I will need all my reserves hitting on all cylinders.
In closing, I would advise eating no cherries today....I'm pretty sure they will be rotten to the pits! Smoochies from my poochies.
Personally, I am scared to death on more streets than I can name. I worry about how the current economic situation is going to affect my husband's brand new business. I worry about the fact that I don't have a job (my own fault, I realize) but none the less.....I worry about both Roger's and my health and the lack of health insurance. I went to Wal-Greens today to refill my thyroid medication and it cost $44.00 and the young man said "Just so you know, this isn't covered by your insurance." Well that ticked me off so I replied, "Just so you know, I don't have any insurance." Then when I went to pick it up, the girl ringing me out said, "Don't you have insurance?" Okay, that particular scab needs to be left alone for awhile. It is really starting to hurt when you pick at it.
I worry about my mom who just had a birthday, lives in Texas long and far away and got a birthday card from my ex-sister-in-law who included a picture of my mom's "boyfriend" with some other woman that had been published in the paper. Now, maybe it's just me, but I thought that was a little mean spirited. Considering the fact the picture was 4 or 5 months old and she had just seen this "family" member about 2 weeks ago and she never mentioned it. I think to send something like that in someone's birthday card was nothing short of evil. My mom has always loved this girl and treated her like her own daughter, no, cancel that....better than her own daughter. It really hurt my mom and then she found out that the woman lives about a mile from her, so obviously "boyfriend" has been making his trips to town really count! Consider that we are talking about people in their late 80s and this is sortof funny but it hurt my mom to think that he wouldn't tell her about something like that and that her friend would do something so thoughtless as to send it in her card without even saying anything about it. SCREAM!!!!!!
I worry about my children, my grandchildren, my friends and heck sometimes even people I hardly know.
I found out today that the father of a girl I had as a boy's club cheerleader many years ago, died suddenly last week from a bleeding stroke. He was still a young man and had a child still in high school. I just think that is tragic. And it makes me realize that you can never assume that you always have tomorrow or next week or next year to make things right with people, tell them you love them and try to make sure that you have no reason for regrets.
I'm really tired today, physically, mentally and emotionally. Roger is spending the night at the hospital again tonight which he really doesn't need to do since he just returned from a very tiring trip so I guess I'll put it to bed early, take my Advil PM and shut out the problems for just a little while. I have a booger of a week next week so I will need all my reserves hitting on all cylinders.
In closing, I would advise eating no cherries today....I'm pretty sure they will be rotten to the pits! Smoochies from my poochies.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Cherries are good for the memory!
Yes, now I remember what it is I hate about school pictures. The early mornings, having to be up and dressed at the butt crack of dawn to go and lug heavy equipment and say, "Good morning...how are you today? Sit down and put both of your feet on the X. Now turn your head toward the camera, look right here and smile." "Click" a few hundred times a day. I am seriously rethinking my agreement to helping Terry next week at Northside.
How-some-ever...I need to be making all the money I can while the opportunities are still there so I guess I'll just suck it up and shut up. I went and bought dog food last night, holy cats! Everything in the world is getting so expensive I truly do not know where it is all going to lead us. Our fearless leaders in the great white house seem to be strangely ignorant of how truly bad things are. I just wish everyone could say "overs" and start again. And, the most important election of my life is about to happen and I don't feel confident enough in either candidate to put my heart and soul into my vote. Maybe the eenie meenie miney mo thing will be the best bet.
Gotta go and get ready so I don't scare little children this morning.
Have a splendiferous day! Don't eat too many cherries.....they have some pretty nasty side effects! Smoochies!
PS - I love this picture......Genevieve looks so happy - Pawpaw is asleep (hahahahaha)
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Today is the first day of the rest.......................
of my life. Blah, blah, blah. The same person who wrote that must have been the jerk who says there are no such things as problems, only opportunities. Sweetie, a pig is still a pig no matter how you dress it!
This morning I am heading to Darling Daughter's to do some tidying for her. Tomorrow I go shoot school pictures with Terry, then back to tidy some more on Thursday. I'm really not lazy, but all in the world I want to not HAVE to do things.
Isn't it funny that we all have these things that we want in our heart of hearts. And we struggle and strive to obtain them only to find they are fingertips further away after the struggle. Maybe this is God's way of telling us we need to find our happiness now with what we do have as opposed to constantly trying to achieve something better. Wow, where did that philosophy come from?
It has taken me a long time, loads of mistakes, wasted opportunities and much hand wringing to understand that inner peace, contentment and dare I say it, yes Joy comes from inside not outside. Seeing your life and realizing all the wonderful things about it instead of looking at the negatives with a microscope helps to set your mind in a better place. I have literally made myself wake up everyday and try to find something positive to think about and it is helping. Oh, there are still those black cloud moments but not so many any more. I think one thing that has really helped me is seeing how happy Roger is with his situation right now. After life dealt him a crushing blow, he took the time to recover and then stepped out in faith in a whole new direction. I know there are times when he is afraid he has done the wrong thing, but by and large I believe he is truly happy with the choice he made.
So I am trying to walk the faith walk as well. I will do what I can to make sure there is dog food in 4 bowls, the lights still burn and we still can put a few gallons of gas in the car and past that I will have to trust that God will provide. And I will no longer operate my life from a position of weakness, need and fear. I have a wonderful partner, great kids, fantastic grandchildren, a few good friends and warm fuzzy dog companions to love me. Truly who could ask for more.
Here's hoping we all have the enthusiasm of Genevieve as shown in this picture!
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